Frustration blues

So my family 's screwed up my plans with Mia, I have an exam today and my mum insists that I eat something before it. She's probably giving me a 500kcal sandwich which has chicken, pita bread and mustard, ugh I'm throwing up already. I guess I'll purge that when I'm at school. The rest of the day is going to be starvation, for me being a bad, bad girl. I have an appointment with the doctor today, she'll sure weigh me but I have a trick that always works: water. I'll drink about 4l of water before I leave, which makes me weigh 4kg heavier that is just water weight I'll lose when I pee lol Take notes on that! I don't even wanna weight myself,I feel like shit, fat and ugly, and tomorrow school starts again, I might be around 95lbs cause I now I've gained :/ Hope you have a better day than mine as always!